Aimless Life
Jerked awake from sleep early morning after 3 hrs of sleep. To think that I washed my face with tears again this morning. It has become a habit for me and has become part of my life to look at my mobile the min I open my eyes. Nothing from him…I sms-ed him, but no reply. I sms-ed him the 2nd time reminding him that he did not call me as he promised to, still no reply. I couldn’t hold it any longer, I called his number but his phone was switched off. Was he at work? If I am not wrong, he should still be in morning shift today. I started to imagine things and started crying again.
I thot I will be feeling better after 4 days, but the pain is still residing happily in me. Tried calling for a few times, but the phone is still off. It’s oki, anyway I dunno what to say to him. Abt 1 hr later, I tried calling him again….Not wanting to talk to him, but just to enjoy that kind of joy that I used to experience when I can call him freely…..THE PHONE RANG! Oh god, before I can respond, he picked up the call. I was stumped, speechless and dunno how to react. My basic instinct was to hang up the call. I wasn’t prepared that he’ll pick up my call.
When I read my blog, I cried again….Reminiscing back on our happy memories made me cry again. My heart was in pain…
Stayed at home lying on the bed for the whoe day! Didn’t do anything and only lie on bed like a dead fish.
Now my mind is in a blank. I manslaughter my brain cells for the past few days. Now I feel like dozing off….Bloggie, please forgive this LITTLE CRICKET as I’m going rest for awhile after all these nites of torture….Nite Nite
